I struggle every day to feel good about myself. My high anxiety is always bubbling just below the surface. Ready to erupt whenever I feel threatened by criticism, or being perceived as too slow, or having my opinions trivialized. My mind is filled with persistent negative thoughts. I try each day to push depression away and to be resilient. I take drugs to manage this situation, but the drugs are only partially effective. If I forget to take the drugs I'm a mess. I erupt with anger, shouting, screaming and threatening my loved ones. Somehow I've managed to avoid being in trouble with the law, more by good luck than good management. My wife and my daughter are afraid of me, my volatile moods, and my anger. They can never relax and trust me fully. Globally, the rate of suicide is alarmingly high, particularly in men. Too many men are ‘toughing it out, keeping their feelings to themselves and struggling in silence. These are men who struggle like I do. Help me stop men from dying too young. More importantly, please help me make lives better for women and girls. Domestic violence is a cancer in our society. Men are to blame. Help men to be better.